GreenDoberman Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 On the surface I am happy and successful. Underneath, the only thing that keeps me from putting a gun in my mouth is that I am a coward. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Yanks Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 My best friend would've been 35 today. Killed honest 7 yrs ago Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rdalert447 Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 Don't ever think about it. Too many good things on this Earth to leave it willingly. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BGS 9.5 Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 There is an AIDS epidemic going around here, you may have gotten it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GreenDoberman Posted July 22, 2017 Author Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 Sorry to hear that Yanks. Sorry for being a dick. I lash out in anger probably because I am unhappy with myself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sol Aristatel Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 I am unhappy with myself. Why? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest pocketrockets Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 Dude, I know the feeling... hang in there... I have actually tried it (and failed) 3-4 times... pills and alcohol... hanging... heroin overdose I survived... there is a higher purpose for the both of us out there, you may not see it or feel it but that doesnt mean is not there Now that I failed... stupidly... next time I try is gonna be a combo of hotshot heroin and hanging, but at this moment and time... last thing on my mind Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GreenDoberman Posted July 22, 2017 Author Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 I have no idea why. I gave a good job, no financial problems, very little stress yet am extremely depressed. Mentally something us not working right and u an tired if internalizing it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Teddy kgb Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 Crazy how many suicides there are.....really, it should be rare to know someone who killed themselves but I could name 10 who was friend or family..... Mentioned it a few times before but my cousin jumped off his second story balcony with a rope tied off to his neck on Xmas morning.....his mom and 3 sisters had to pull him up.......how's that for fvcked up.... Girl who sat in front of me in history class in 10th grade hung herself in the garage and her dad drove up and hit the garage door opener and there was his daughter hanging from the rafters.......fvcked up Best friend in 10th grade got busted for robbery just out of highschool and hung himself in prison.... Life ain't that bad or hard....... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dingo Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 Do you hate women? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sol Aristatel Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 I have no idea why. I gave a good job, no financial problems, very little stress yet am extremely depressed. Mentally something us not working right and u an tired if internalizing it. Have you sought professional advice yet? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Timely Hitting Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 Crazy how many suicides there are.....really, it should be rare to know someone who killed themselves but I could name 10 who was friend or family..... Mentioned it a few times before but my cousin jumped off his second story balcony with a rope tied off to his neck on Xmas morning.....his mom and 3 sisters had to pull him up.......how's that for fvcked up.... Girl who sat in front of me in history class in 10th grade hung herself in the garage and her dad drove up and hit the garage door opener and there was his daughter hanging from the rafters.......fvcked up Best friend in 10th grade got busted for robbery just out of highschool and hung himself in prison.... Life ain't that bad or hard.......read something about interviews with people who survived a leap off the Golden Gate Bridge - might have even been a documentary, can't remember - and nearly all of them said they immediately regretted their decision when they jumped. it's hard to understand that life isn't so terrible until you realize it's about to end. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GreenDoberman Posted July 22, 2017 Author Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 No I don't, I love and respect women. I think. I was a horrible teacher btw. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Teddy kgb Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 read something about interviews with people who survived a leap off the Golden Gate Bridge - might have even been a documentary, can't remember - and nearly all of them said they immediately regretted their decision when they jumped. it's hard to understand that life isn't so terrible until you realize it's about to end.Seen the same documentary.....that would have to be crazy after jumping when you think wtf am I doing Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FISHHEAD Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 Greenie, meet me in Southern Highlands .....Zest Let me know when you sonofabitch Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sol Aristatel Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 I was a horrible teacher btw. You must have sucked at the classroom management thing. Its key. So underrated. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dingo Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 No I don't, I love and respect women. I think. I was a horrible teacher btw.Why do you attack IAGYou don't even know her? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sol Aristatel Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 Why do you attack IAGYou don't even know her? To be fair. He followed it up with, "I think." Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GreenDoberman Posted July 22, 2017 Author Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 I have shared with my doctor and got a referral but have not gone. Went to a shrink twice in my twenties after a bad breakup with a girl but got nothing out of it. Doubt that self-medicating with alcohol and hookers helps. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Teddy kgb Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 So we're all done with Joey and Plomm deal and on to this......check Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FISHHEAD Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 Greenie, let Dr. FH counsel you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FairWarning Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 I'm a GD fan. Good chance I'm out in LV for Sour Saturday at Atomic Liquors in Nov. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GreenDoberman Posted July 22, 2017 Author Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 Why do you attack IAGYou don't even know her?Probably projecting my own insecurities. I have no idea. Usually I get angry when I drink. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest pocketrockets Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 I have no idea why. I gave a good job, no financial problems, very little stress yet am extremely depressed. Mentally something us not working right and u an tired if internalizing it. Feel free to vent here pal, I will never turn my ears away from someone needing a talk Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FISHHEAD Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 Pockets has a soul unmatched here. God bless you son Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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