Bigrunner Posted January 17, 2019 Report Share Posted January 17, 2019 Camper you can do it. One day at a time. You're not alone and there have been so many before you that have done it. Please make that list. Never give up. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Raver Camper Posted January 17, 2019 Author Report Share Posted January 17, 2019 Thanks, yes I tried the cbd oil for two weeks. I didn’t notice a difference. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Raver Camper Posted January 17, 2019 Author Report Share Posted January 17, 2019 Thanks guys! We played a card game called spoons. It was pretty cool. I have more comments and will be back later after this session is done. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Colonel Lingus Posted January 17, 2019 Report Share Posted January 17, 2019 Maybe change your avatar and screen name to something a little more positive? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Raver Camper Posted January 17, 2019 Author Report Share Posted January 17, 2019 Maybe change your avatar and screen name to something a little more positive?Not a bad suggestion but that won’t help me. I’m due for a new camper screen name soon. I’ll put my thinking cap on. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FrogFries Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 Camper hope all works out. You tube some mediation music. Put some ear buds in, and tune out the world and focus on your well being, stuff works. Take care Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeefyBets Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 I’ve made it so far. They have me approved for another week. I’m not sure I’ll do another week.I can’t see how another week will change anything. People with eating disorders, kids, an old lady, a younger than I guy is ok. Guys, I’m doing fucking 30 minutes of exercise, in my chair. Thursday afternoon is game day. I just feel they are trying to fill seats. I need to get well by myself, suck it up, get back to work, and stop the drama (anxiety and depression). Sounds like a losing battle. Hopefully not. Thanks for the encouragement above because I wasn’t going to return today, but I did. sounds like you are lying. they dont put kids in with adults Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sol Aristatel Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 sounds like you are lying. they dont put kids in with adults I'd imagine he meant kids as in much younger compared to him. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
housepicks Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 Just be a man. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KingRevolver Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 Get it together, pal. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Raver Camper Posted January 18, 2019 Author Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 sounds like you are lying. they dont put kids in with adultsTo clarify for you, kids, like 19 year olds combined with a lady who is 73. Not kids as in small children/teens. I got a chuckle because I don’t think anyone would make a thread that they are mentally ill just for fun. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IAG Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 You sleeping any better Camper? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Raver Camper Posted January 18, 2019 Author Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 Get it together, pal.Thanks! I’m trying. Divorce thing is killing me but what did I expect? I completed a week. I’m not sure if I’ll do one more. I had a 19 year old telling me I shouldn’t be concerned about my job/job security and just to focus on me. There is some truth to that however I can’t flirt with possible termination from a job I have for almost 20 years. I’d be fucked 100 times worse than I am now. This 19 year old, who works at the mall, doesn’t understand me fearing for my job. FMLA is exhausted, because of an unrelated illness last year, and it’s a rolling year. Without that protection, if they want me out/gone they could do it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sol Aristatel Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 Thanks! I’m trying. Divorce thing is killing me but what did I expect? I completed a week. I’m not sure if I’ll do one more. I had a 19 year old telling me I shouldn’t be concerned about my job/job security and just to focus on me. There is some truth to that however I can’t flirt with possible termination from a job I have for almost 20 years. I’d be fucked 100 times worse than I am now. This 19 year old, who works at the mall, doesn’t understand me fearing for my job. FMLA is exhausted, because of an unrelated illness last year, and it’s a rolling year. Without that protection, if they want me out/gone they could do it. What good is a job if you are dead? I think that's the proper perspective here. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Raver Camper Posted January 18, 2019 Author Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 I wouldn’t kill myself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Raver Camper Posted January 18, 2019 Author Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 Losing my job may kill me though. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sol Aristatel Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 I wouldn’t kill myself. Ever? Under any circumstances? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Raver Camper Posted January 18, 2019 Author Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 You sleeping any better Camper? Yes, thanks for asking! I’m off of ambian and lunesta. I take 100mg seraquell and 15 mg mirtazipime. Prob 7-9 hours depending on the night. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Raver Camper Posted January 18, 2019 Author Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 Ever? Under any circumstances? I don’t want to jinx how I feel so I’ll refrain from answering or thinking about it. I don’t mind the question though and appreciate the dialogue! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IAG Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 Yes, thanks for asking! I’m off of ambian and lunesta. I take 100mg seraquell and 15 mg mirtazipime. Prob 7-9 hours depending on the night.Good to hear. Insomnia is the worst. Glad you found something that worked for you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sol Aristatel Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 I don’t want to jinx how I feel so I’ll refrain from answering or thinking about it. I don’t mind the question though and appreciate the dialogue! I'll dial it down a bit. Happiness > any job. You ain't happy right now. What good is a job if you ain't happy and hate life? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sol Aristatel Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 And if you have panic/anxiety disorder, you will not be able to function in the real world until you get right. Living lightheaded and dizzy all the time with frequent panic attacks is a disability you can't overcome without some guidance and help. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Raver Camper Posted January 18, 2019 Author Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 I'll dial it down a bit. Happiness > any job. You ain't happy right now. What good is a job if you ain't happy and hate life? I don't hate life. I'm just not happy because my wife filed for divorce. It just recently hit me hard. I'm to blame. I just don't know how to cope with it. I need to learn. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Raver Camper Posted January 18, 2019 Author Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 And if you have panic/anxiety disorder, you will not be able to function in the real world until you get right. Living lightheaded and dizzy all the time with frequent panic attacks is a disability you can't overcome without some guidance and help. So far I've been to the crisis unit and intensive op program. Our mental health system is broken and flawed. It's a business and they just want to fill chairs/beds. That's it. There are a ton of people wayyyyyyyyyyy worse off than I am and those people I feel sorry for way more than I feel sorry for myself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IAG Posted January 18, 2019 Report Share Posted January 18, 2019 I'll dial it down a bit. Happiness > any job. You ain't happy right now. What good is a job if you ain't happy and hate life? Good point, but I would imagine he would be really unhappy if he loses more than his marriage because he can’t pay the bills. I don’t know his financial situation, so maybe he has plenty of savings, but unless he can get some sort of short term disability, I would be a little afraid of losing my job also. Maybe he could talk to human resources and express his concern. ...tell them he believes that he could benefit from continuing the program (if that’s true) but that he values his job and does not want to jeopardize that...maybe feel them out a bit. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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